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Spiritual Bankruptcy

This is one of my recent journal entries. I must disclose my mind is distorted. So take what you like and leave the rest.

A few years ago I had reached the point of spiritual bankruptcy. My belief in God was still there and I was still going to church. But, in my mind (which is a scary place to be) I had come to the conclusion that God had given up on me and was simply willing to let me muddle through life without any spiritual compass. This was obviously a distortion in my thinking that had become my own reality. Thoughts are not always reality. So rather than do something about it I dug deeper into self pity and my medication of choice was Beer and Scotch.

I’m very blessed today that I was finally scared into reaching up for help. What I thought was going to be long-term treatment for how to stop drinking turned into a transformation of my spirit. Today I’m living with a fresh perspective on life and rather than bathing in self pity today I know God loves me and with this faith I can contribute to the stream of life and not always looking at life from the perspective of what can I gain out of this. It’s not all about me today!!

I also keep in perspective this is progress, not perfection. I have not completely been able to conquer my past and the pain I caused myself and others, but I’m moving in the right direction one day at a time.

Here is a scripture I read this week …. “Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer” (Romans 12:12). This verse represents a very good, simple, outline for living.

Here is a quote a friend shared with me this week…

"To get something you never had, you have to do something you never did. When God takes something from your grasp, He's not punishing you, but merely opening your hands to receive something better. The Will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you”.

The Grace of God is the reason I’m alive today.

Keep it in the fairway!

Chris